Post Date December, 03 2023
Just before I was going home to get my marriage certificate with my boyfriend, my unit organized a trip to other places. My boyfriend and I are from the same company, but unfortunately, he had family matters at the time and couldn't participate in the trip. I originally thought he wouldn't go and I wouldn't go either, but he said that the travel organized by his unit doesn't cost him any money, and his colleagues have good relationships. He advised me to go, so I went with my colleagues. Before leaving, he also instructed his usually good colleagues to take care of me.
Traveling is quite difficult, but leaving the office makes me feel good. One night, a few people were idle and we were entangled in a large group of colleagues, men and women, preparing to drink and chat. I chose my room because both of us girls came alone. After drinking several dozen beers, everyone gradually felt a bit tipsy. One of the colleagues seems to be quite drunk and has started talking nonsense. He ran to the balcony under the influence of drunkenness and refused to enter the room, but it was very cold outside, so everyone took turns to persuade him to return to the room. Many people went and were scolded back by him under the influence of alcohol. I took a coat and went out to find him. He was already standing unsteadily, leaning against the wall. Just as I approached him to talk to him, he suddenly grabbed me and said, "Do you know who I like the most among our colleagues?" Before I could answer, he had already said the answer, which was my boyfriend. Of course, their relationship is quite good, and he takes care of my boyfriend very much. Although he is only 3 years older than us, he is already our direct supervisor. I didn't pay much attention to him. I think he's drunk and talking nonsense, so I'll handle it. I know, I know. The next thing he wanted to say made me unforgettable in this life. He suddenly lowered his head and muttered, "But I found out that I also fell in love with his girlfriend at the same time
Late at night, everyone dispersed one by one. I was in the room all night without sleeping, thinking, 'Is he drunk?'?
It's necessary to talk about him. We have a good relationship because he has a good relationship with my boyfriend. In the workplace, a few of us are always together, eating, chatting, playing games, and even going out to play together when we have time. We are close colleagues in private. The reason why I was stunned after hearing his seemingly false confession was because I had secretly fallen in love with him before. Because he is outstanding, because he is righteous, because he is kind to his friends, kind-hearted, and has the rare maturity of his peers... I have discovered the strengths of others' personalities. I cannot help but like him and am infatuated with him. But this love has always been suppressed, no one knows, for many reasons. Firstly, I have a boyfriend who has already started a family; Secondly, he and my boyfriend are good friends; Thirdly, he is very outstanding, surrounded by excellent women, and I cannot be the type he likes at all. Of course, the most important thing is that I cannot bear the condemnation of conscience and morality. So I silently admire him for many years.
Say more about me and my boyfriend. It's very simple, we are college classmates. But it's not easy for us to be together, and we've gone through many ups and downs. In the end, I was moved by his sincerity, and I felt that he was the right person to get married because he had a good temper, treated me well, and took care of me. But I understand very well that he is not the type I want. The man I like should have ideals, a sense of responsibility, be older than me, and have mature thoughts. He doesn't have any of these.
I am an extremely ordinary girl. No appearance, no background, just living by the rules. So my life is very ordinary. In primary school, high school, university, and work, I am a obedient girl who is seen by most people as a worry free for my parents. Is it precisely because of this that I need something different to fill me?
Guess what happens to me?
I accepted his offer of love. On the bus the day after he confessed, I told him that I had liked him for many years. But he didn't seem surprised. He said that because you are too much like me, I know.
Soon, my boyfriend and I went back to his house as planned to get a marriage certificate. And now that I am married, I often secretly date and meet him. Even staying overnight at a hotel. When it comes to staying overnight, I have never had sexual activity before marriage, and I reject sexual activity. But now, I love doing anything with him. We have found that we have too many similarities, which makes us have a special understanding. With just one glance, we have already completed our communication. We sometimes take advantage of the opportunity to travel together. The reason why others cannot suspect us is because from the appearance, we are too different people. That's why I feel so incredible.
I have also thought that if I leave my husband, I will also be unable to bear it. After all, it has been many years. He stayed in my city for me. Am I just using this to repay him? But I don't want to hurt him. I think he is such a good person and should find someone who loves him more.
He said, 'Let me treat my husband better.'. After all, we were together deceiving him. He doesn't know anything. I know, he really likes my husband and wants to be his true friend. But... why?
Guilt, apology... I don't know what kind of mood I am in? I have always been so obedient and obedient. Why am I having an extramarital affair here, who doesn't even have excessive behavior with boys?
I know, I fell hopelessly in love with him. He is the same, I can feel that if I don't see him for a day, I will have difficulty breathing. Every night, we find opportunities to send text messages. We can't help but fall in love. We see each other every day, and I have to face two men every day. And he has to face me and my husband. The three of us often go out alone, eating or something. Three people sat together, each with their own thoughts. I don't know what this is?
My husband is very kind to me, as always. He will text me soon if he doesn't see me: "Baby, where are you? I miss you." But I know, I know, most of my thoughts are no longer with my husband. Because I have received the love that many people want, no, it's love. You love someone, and that person happens to love you very much. Such luck is not something that everyone will encounter. But this love came at a bad time.
We all know that we need to live well with our respective partners. We have always planned to keep this secret love for as long as possible. We have been together for over a year now, and many things have happened, but we still love and support each other.
Next year, I plan to have a child for my husband. What am I going to do? That's it, for a lifetime? To be honest, my inner condemnation suffocated me. I know, I deserve to be cut to pieces. Now that the heavens have let me die, I will never say a word. But I am still alive, is it necessary to make everyone around me better? What about myself? I'm tired.
(Intern Editor: Lai Jiaxing)
