Post Date December, 02 2023
I have been married to my husband for three or four years. My husband is a man who likes to rest and hates work. Almost all the food, clothing, housing and transportation need to be provided by his family. He doesn't know how to take care of others, and is not as romantic as others.
I am a man eager for quick success and instant benefit. Of course, women, which is not vanity, blind competition?
Over the years, my husband has done a lot for me. Apart from enjoying it, I'm not too touched. Because, in my opinion, those are what a man should do.
A person's patience is limited. I also understand my husband's difficulties. The reason why I still live an extravagant life as always is that I hope to give my husband some pressure and hope that he will turn pressure into power.
However, I am so naive that I always think that love can overcome everything. At present, the family is out of touch in order to repay the mortgage. My husband has also been distressed and tried hard, but the white silver will never come out of nowhere.
Later, my husband began to sink, and even worse, he simply muddled along. I also know that his family has put too much pressure on him, and I want to share it, but I'm just a weak woman!
One day, my husband shouted at me after getting drunk. He also said that if I were taken care of, my family would not be like this.
Hearing what my husband said, my heart felt like a knife. Although I am not a good wife, I am not wrong enough to sell my body.
The next day, the husband who slept all night seemed as if nothing had happened. I know in my heart that he has his difficulties. However, I should also have my pursuit. I have shaken the ground more than once. Why should I persist in this unfortunate marriage.
I dreamed that one day there would be a rich man who would rescue me from suffering with a heart of true love. However, this is just my wishful thinking, just my fantasy.
Today, my husband is still intoxicated and his brain has been paralyzed by alcohol. He has not noticed my psychological changes at all. Perhaps, one day, I cheated, will he blame me?
Sometimes, giving up is a relief.
(Intern editor: Lai Jiaxing)
