Post Date December, 02 2023
To him, I am just a passer by in his life, but to me, everything about him is magnificent. Remembering the person who couldn't help but love poured out memories all over the place. It's scary to be sentimental, but sometimes it's good to thank it.
If everything had been possible, I wished I hadn't given up.
How I wish you could come and hold me and tell me that you don't want to be just a friend.
In 2008, in Dalian, I met Mr. Yi. A man who has been of great significance to my life so far.
"I have never mentioned these words to him, so to this day, I don't know whether he feels so important in someone else's heart.".
"Because my mother was an educator, I received extremely strict family education from childhood to adulthood, and I have had a smooth ride along the way.". Until I failed in the high school entrance exam, I broke all my fantasies about the future for a good girl.
So, as a stubborn child, I went to a very ordinary high school. My parents were disappointed, and I was decadent all day. At that time, daily life was like eating endlessly and sleeping endlessly. I abandoned myself, I no longer think about my dreams. This aimless day has passed for nearly a year.
Until one day, I met Mr. Yi.
Mr. Yi and I have a common goal: to be a host, to go to Beijing, and to enter the school that all children studying radio dream of. Because of the same interests and ideals in life, we have become very close friends.
Every noon, we stay together, discuss and study, gossip. Together, we went to the shabby little shop outside the high school for a simple lunch, and together, we escaped siesta for various plausible reasons. We were chatting about our passionate dreams in the small pubs on the street, facing broken tables.
We speak wildly, we are unruly, but we are serious about our dreams. I miss those days that really existed, never lost.
Friends who have known me for a long time know that I have had periods of severe body deformation. Whatever others say, I never had the idea of losing weight. "I give up on myself and feel that no one will care anyway, but love is a particularly magical thing that always turns everything you think is impossible into reality.".
"Because of Mr. Yi, in order to increase his liking for me even a little, I made up my mind to start a very painful and difficult day of losing weight.". Those who have had the same experience as me must be able to appreciate that feeling. I can't help it. I was a particularly stubborn child when I was young. As long as I decide to do something, I will definitely not give up until I reach my goal.
Although many things later proved to me that this may not be a very good personality, I have to say that for him, I still lost 15 kilograms of fat, and my appearance became beautiful.
"I grew my long hair and combed the non mainstream style of Qi Liuhai that filled the streets in those days. I began to study very seriously. Like him, I became a good student in the eyes of my teachers.".
At the lowest stage of my life, I became a bit different because of Mr. Yi. Although I don't want this to happen next, when the turning point in life comes, you can't help but learn to take it.
When everything seemed to be okay, he left.
In fact, it didn't happen suddenly. He is a year older than me, so from the day I fell in love with him, I clearly knew that he would leave first. And he was the one who won the lottery and went to Beijing, the place we have mentioned countless times.
"I'm happy for him, maybe that feeling is no less than his parents.". I watched as his efforts were not in vain, and I watched as he left.
So you say, should I be happy or sad?
I always thought that our school was so big that it took a long time to walk from the teaching building to the school gate. But on the day he walked out, I got burned and the person I hadn't seen enough of disappeared into my sight within a few steps.
"That day, I looked at him and felt sad for a long time, but I never let tears flow down.".
You see, the person who goes first can always walk away easily. The person who first moves his emotions can only stay where he is and pretend to be calm.
From then on, I kept my heart from telling you how much I liked him. Since then, I have been loving him for a long time, hiding from all my friends around me. I just didn't mention a word to him about all these emotions.
"I pretended not to care. As the safest looking friend, I've loved him for five years, and it seems like it's been a little longer, who knows?"?
