Post Date December, 02 2023
People often use the word "pure love" to describe beautiful girls, but it's hardly surprising that boys also have pure feelings. Let me think of myself as one. It's hard to believe that I haven't officially made friends at the age of 26.
It is not that I have any defects, but that I always believe that there will be a girl waiting for me sincerely; It seems like a sentence in Hu Shi's article: "I will look for my only partner in my life in the vast sea of people. I am lucky to get it, but I am not lucky. That's all."
Is that really all? In fact, when I was ignorant of the opposite sex, I also had a crush on a girl. At that time, I was only in middle school. There was a petite and lovely girl in my class that made me moved.
Unfortunately. She has talked about friends, and the man is tall and powerful, with a bad reputation. I thought to myself that I was weak, and I dare not make mistakes; However, it is not limited to this that I dare not make mistakes, even after she broke up with her friends.
She will also immediately choose tall and handsome boys at work. Besides, she will continue to be as simple as changing clothes without any sign of procrastination; I have no room to take advantage of, and of course I am a little ashamed.
We seldom talk at school. It seems that we are in two circles, and because of my temperament, it is impossible to approach her at all (I didn't dare to approach me when I heard her later, because she thinks I belong to those who study better)——
However, one day she took the initiative to contact me by telephone. I know that in this class, only two of us have telephones (because our parents are cadres). At that time, few people could have a telephone, so I rarely touched the telephone for my father's office, not because I didn't want to, but because there was no one to call.
She took the initiative to talk to me probably out of curiosity, but was willing to accept me. After all, she found a way to approach her. At one time, I got two kinds of fun - the fun of making phone calls and the fun of talking with her.
On the phone, we found it easy to talk about everything, and even sang to each other or played a nice music. We call each other to ask about homework, time, weather and everything we know and don't know.
A conversation without meeting can really give people time to think fully and inexplicable pleasure without embarrassment. At that time, none of us wanted to put down the phone easily. Even if there was something to do, we would say it - wait, and call again after we finished.
I know that she is only interested in the telephone itself. For me, she doesn't care at all. She doesn't care who the caller is. It doesn't matter to her. She only likes to make phone calls. That's all.
So, we talked and laughed on the phone, and the school was still like a passer-by.
She still has a boyfriend in line, and I can only watch her silently from a distance——
Time is fleeting. Graduation is coming soon. Graduation was very busy. I was too busy to say goodbye. I think she will probably never call me; So I quietly took a graduation photo of her on the teacher's desk. It was just an adventure to remember her years later.
However, at this time, she called and said that someone saw me take her photo and asked me to return it to her as soon as possible. I remember that I was very flustered at that time, holding the photo in my hand, but denying it in my mouth.
Later, she hung up, and my heart was still pounding. I wanted to make up for this mistake, but I refused to give up the photo. So I took out my paintbrush and copied it down in a hurry. Then I ran back to school and put the photo back where it was. I hope the teacher can return it to her in time after finding it. After all this, I returned home with lingering fear——
Another twinkling of an eye, when I grew up from a carefree little boy who always thought time was a long time to a young man who was as simple as a day after a year, I found that I had changed into an express train of time. On this train, whether I wanted to or not, I could never return to the post station in the past. I could only move forward and had no intention to miss the scenery. My mind was always blank.
The fear of age makes people lonely and helpless. Friends also go their own ways. Most of them take their children with happy and comfortable smiles, and consume their young lives in the street, just like they have completed their historical mission. What about me.
Although I don't want to agree with this, I can't help but have a lot of envy. Perhaps, in this peaceful day, you can get a woman's heart, have a happy family, or it is also a great pleasure in life.
"I will look for my only partner in my life in the vast crowd, but where is she?
Last year, I met her when I was a child in my unit. She is on temporary secondment here. I am not excited because I have placed her in the deepest part of my heart as a fragment of childhood memory. It is like a cup of tea overnight. The tea is deep at the bottom of the cup. Although the tea is thick, it has no intoxicating aroma. We will meet more often in the future, and just say hello in an adult way—— However, once it made people feel a little different.
That was in the canteen. She came all the way to borrow a bowl from me. She said she wanted to make some soup, so I had to lend it to her. But after I finished eating, I found that she still hadn't touched the bowl of soup, so I went forward and asked. If she didn't want to drink, it would be there. I was ready to go; She said that she still wanted to drink, and then took a gulp and showed it to me.
I have to say, don't worry, I will go to work first, and return to the unit. She nodded happily. After that, she always appeared in front of me intentionally or unintentionally. I think she must be doing something profound——
Finally, one day I received a call from a girlfriend of hers. I was not surprised about her, but I didn't know how to answer her. Suddenly, I found that after what I had been expecting for a long time, my heart was as calm as dead water. I couldn't find any feeling at the beginning, or I couldn't accept it quickly.
There are many reasons why I can't accept her, the most important of which is to doubt her sincerity.
In the following days, most of the sleep was occupied for the purpose of understanding her. I'm worried that she is only anxious to find a safe haven because of her age, or she is temporarily lonely in her heart and needs personal support——
However, if she is sincere, how can I ignore her feelings?
I lost sleep this night. The tea, which had been sleeping for a long time, was easily turned upside down by her and kept floating in her mind. I decided to call her.
The next day, her girlfriend just called and asked me if I could take her to my house. Her girlfriend was very warm, and I agreed. That evening, I received them and talked happily together.
To be exact, it was her girlfriend who chatted very happily. She occupied most of the conversation time; Well, this will save us a lot of embarrassment. She was very quiet that day. Her face was slightly red as before she was 18 years old. She just kept talking with her eyes and could not hide her joy.
I tried to make my words witty, but there were often embarrassing scenes. Fortunately, no matter what she heard, she was smiling and silent, and finally left with this expression.
After that, I began to take the initiative to ask her out. Once in a while, I called her and went out for a walk. I told her the story of my childhood love for her. At first, she didn't believe it and thought I was acting. When I gave her the little picture, she had to admit it was true;
I told her that tomorrow is my birthday and I hope she can come. She happily asked me what kind of gift I needed. I said, find a gift belt to tie on your waist, and you are my best gift. She smiled knowingly.
However, she didn't come on her birthday. I was disappointed and called her. She said that she had guests at home. I was bored to come later. I didn't hear from her until midnight.
