My sexual relationship with my husband has always been disharmonious. I have fantasized about cheating multiple times, but what I didn't expect was that I really cheated that time.
I have been very frustrated ever since I had a relationship. In fact, I am not a casual person. He really appreciates me very much. I asked him if he loves me, and he frankly said he just likes me, appreciates me, but not loves me, which makes me feel that he is real enough. So, I am still willing to write this matter down.
I have been married to my husband for three years and haven't had any children yet, but our sexual life is not harmonious, which makes me very depressed. My husband is a person with no emotional appeal, and he is not considerate. He is very careless. Every time my husband enters, I do it underneath, and when I happen to feel excited, he finishes it. It's true that I never lie. I think it's okay if the time is short, but he never cares about my feelings. I have told him many times that I don't have any feelings. I want to have foreplay, but he said that what kind of foreplay do I need when I'm old and married? He couldn't do it, he always looked eager every time. I thought, even if the time was shorter, we could do our foreplay better. Two or three minutes would be enough for us, but he never thought from my perspective. So gradually, I didn't expect to have sex with him anymore, and we gradually lost warmth and communication.
In fact, relatively speaking, apart from this, we can really be said to be very good. In life, he cares about me very much and also loves me very much. I know he loves me, but these things always make me suffocate. I think love and sex are combined, but he doesn't think so because we have different ideas. Then I contacted Zhou, who was just a netizen of mine. In fact, we haven't known each other for a long time, but since we met, he has given me the feeling of being a man who understands women very well, gentle and meticulous. Perhaps the internet has made it easier for us to open up, and we even occasionally talk about bed matters. He said that he knows how to please women in bed, which has injected me with a sense of curiosity towards him.
Later on, we often bumped into each other online, and we had a lot of mutual understanding and hobbies. Every time we chatted with him, we were very happy. He has repeatedly said that I am a very understanding and flavorful woman. In fact, I also admire him very much. When he's in a bad mood, he's impulsive and wants to meet him, but I've never mentioned it before. I don't want to take the initiative to ask him out because I don't want him to think I'm a very casual woman. Later, after chatting online for a long time, we moved from the internet to phone lines and made phone calls and sent messages like old friends.
That day, I suddenly received a phone call from him saying that he was not at work and was outside. He wanted to meet me because we were in the same city and he only drove over for about 20 minutes. I didn't originally plan to go out to see him, but because I had a difficult time with my husband the night before, my heart was very bad and I happened to be not busy with work. I found an excuse from my leader and hurriedly went to the appointment, After meeting, we chatted happily like old friends for many years, occasionally joking. After lunch, I suggested going shopping. He said that he was afraid that encountering acquaintances would have a negative impact on me, so it would be better to find a hotel to chat and chat. I didn't even think about it, so I agreed.
When we arrived at the room, we sat there chatting with the TV on at first, but before we could say a few words, he suddenly hugged me from behind and breathed quickly. He missed me so much these days, and then kissed my hair and murmured sweetly, kissing my neck and then my mouth. This had a great impact on me, because I had not been intimate for a long time, and I did not refuse to kiss him. Later, when he pushed me down on the bed and tried to take off my pants, I instinctively pushed him away and said no, it's not possible. But he hugged me tighter and said, 'I want you really, really want you.'.
I acquiesced once again in this way. When I was wearing a professional dress, he directly pulled my underwear down from below and stroked my bottom with his hand. He was very eager and strong, so he lifted my dress and put on the cover to push it in. So we had sex, and he was really hard and big on his side. After doing it for at least thirty minutes, I enjoyed the ecstatic feeling for the first time... My husband was my first man, and I've been with him for so many years, and to be honest, I've never had sex for more than ten minutes, so I never knew before that sex could last that long.
Later, we chatted for a long time in the room, and he said he knew I was not a casual woman, but everyone had their own desires to vent. To be honest, I was a bit moved by what he said, at least he didn't treat me like that kind of woman.
And the netizen who had an offline relationship with me once contacted me several times after that, wanting to ask me out, but I knew that if I missed it once, I couldn't go wrong anymore, so I refused him. Gradually, we also lost contact. In fact, considering the feelings on the internet, most of them were just for venting personal desires, and I also hated why I was so foolish at that time, I easily got into bed with a stranger I didn't know.
(Intern Editor: Lai Jiaxing)