Post Date December, 03 2023
Wang Tao is four years younger than me, a very sunny boy sitting opposite me.
At first, we were innocent. There are many colleagues at the opposite table in the world, not every pair will perform a love scene. Besides, I am married and have a happy family. There is no need to disrupt my marriage.
At that time, I didn't know that there was another type of emotion in the world, deeper than friendship and shallower than love. It was like a vine that gradually bound your heart.
After getting married, my husband started his own business. After the company grew, we began to have disagreements. He wanted me to be a full-time wife, but I was afraid of losing myself.
In order to prove to him that my work and life are the same, I went home after work and prepared the dishes before he came back. Moreover, I tried not to bring the bad mood in class home.
A few months ago, the company changed its boss and began inhumane stress management in the office.
No matter how diligent I am, I still inevitably get scolded by my boss. Sometimes when I come home, I really want to talk to my husband, but it can't solve anything. At least I can express my emotions.
But as soon as I started, he pulled down his face and said, "Don't tell me. I told you to resign earlier, you deserve it
That day, I promised to accompany my husband to a cocktail party, but just before I finished work, the boss added another pile of work, so I had to continue working.
Call my husband to explain the situation, he got angry and cursed me on the phone.
Hanging up the phone, I feel very aggrieved. Unexpectedly, a few minutes later, Wang Tao asked me with concern on MSN, "What's wrong? Feeling bad
With just one sentence, my tears came out.
I complained a lot, and Wang Tao patiently listened to me, comforted me, and told me jokes. At that moment, a long lost feeling of being spoiled suddenly revived.
I began to treat Wang Tao, who was four years younger than me, with a different perspective.
We usually chat on MSN, which is relatively covert. Sometimes when I have too much work on hand, I also say to Wang Tao, "Help me find some information." After half an hour, he will quickly pass on the things to me.
With Wang Tao, I no longer have a tight face when I go home. My husband is very strange, and I didn't explain much. Like me, Wang Tao's girlfriend is also unaware of my existence.
As the topic delves deeper, we not only talk about work, but also about emotions. Men and women who have no interests will be calm and witty when discussing emotional issues, like enjoying a plate of spiritual dishes.
Occasionally, he also teases me. He calls me Sister Bao or something, and I respond by asking him to have a younger brother or a younger brother.
At that time, I realized that language and words can also be used for romance.
His language became increasingly bold, such as, 'I suddenly miss you very much.'
I was clearly on the diagonal corner of his desk, and the thought of words made my mood fluctuate. You know how tempting it is for a 28 year old woman, I can't help but want to hug her a few times.
This is very dangerous, like playing acrobatics on the edge of a cliff. If you don't pay attention, you will fall off. Anyway, it adds a lot of fun to my life.
I have found that this is a new outlet for my life, like a service area on the highway where you can add some gas, drink some soda, and get some air. It's amazing, isn't it?
There is also confusion. Many times, when I laugh and argue with Wang Tao on MSN, I always think of the line from "Journey to the West", "I guessed the beginning, but I can't guess the ending
I really enjoy the intimate feeling with Wang Tao, but I am afraid that one day we will go astray.
One day, I won a big project for the company, and the bonus was distributed. My colleagues were arguing for me to treat them. Five people went to eat hot pot, and Wang Tao was also there.
Coincidentally, the other three had something to attend to during the meal and left one after another. Only Wang Tao and I were left. He was a bit nervous, and I also started to get nervous.
Unconsciously, it became ambiguous. It seemed that as long as one person suggested opening a house, the other would definitely go.
After a fierce battle in my mind, I finally bravely said, "Why are you so nervous? What kind of crazy idea are you making
He doesn't speak. I pretended to slap him on the shoulder and said, "Let's not go into the vulgar world
So he grinned and smiled, knowing each other well. So we both let go and ended the meal jokingly.
The next day, we had a deep discussion on this relationship on MSN, and I even drafted twelve military regulations, such as not being able to go to bed or talk about sex.
Wang Tao also agrees that we only communicate on MSN.
I request not to talk about sex as much as possible, but I am not yet that open minded and the temptation is too stimulating.
Occasionally, there is also jealousy. Seeing his gentle demeanor on the phone with his girlfriend, jealousy surged.
I think Wang Tao also has it. When I occasionally chat with colleagues about my husband's details, Wang Tao's expression may not be natural.
Actually, no matter how we define it, there is still a kind of love between Wang Tao and me.
Although we do not fall in love and are far from marriage, the spiritual pleasure is sometimes far more profound than the physical pleasure.
I don't know what will happen in the future, but at least for now, I cherish this kind of interaction.
(Intern Editor: Cai Junyi)
