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Just over 8 months after I went abroad, Xin Xin was raped by three gangsters while working a night shift. The next month, she found out she was pregnant!

This was the second blow after a heavy blow to her, as the humiliation she had suffered had already left her heartbroken and unable to extricate herself. The subsequent pregnancy made her even more miserable and hopeless. She went to the hospital to try to kill the child,

Unexpectedly, the hospital concluded that she was unable to undergo an abortion due to congenital reasons. Moreover, even after giving birth, her best method is still contraception. If she wants to give birth, it will take several years, and the danger cannot be completely ruled out. On the day Xinxin returned from the hospital, she committed suicide by cutting her wrist at home. Fortunately, her sister happened to come to see her out of some premonition and quickly had someone take her to the hospital. The rescued heart and mind were extremely unstable, and she couldn't hear people say my name. As soon as she said it, she cried and searched for life. It wasn't until after more than seven months of pregnancy that she gradually calmed down and seemed to have accepted her destiny to be the mother of this child.

By the end of what Sister Xinxin said, I had already shed tears and my heart was torn like a knife. In a daze, I only noticed the various diapers hanging in a mess on her balcony. Entering the room of my heart, the first 'thing' in my eyes was the child: a baby girl over two months old, her eyes tightly closed, sleeping soundly. I stared at her, my brain in chaos. The child's nose bridge is very low, which is different from us all. This sudden fact forced me to clench my fists and tears gushed out once again.

At this moment, my heart entered the door. As soon as she saw me, she stood there staring at me, her eyes filled with bitterness, guilt, and pain... After nearly two years of separation, who would have expected such a situation to happen. I walked forward, exhausted and eager to embrace her, but she dodged. She looked at me with a searching gaze, and I pulled her back and pressed her head against my chest. I said, 'It's my fault, I didn't protect you well. Please come back with me.' I felt her sobbing,

At first, she just cried softly, but gradually her whole body was shaking non-stop. Her stiff arms slowly wrapped around my waist, and finally, her grief was like a flood breaking a levee. She hugged me tightly and shed tears on my chest to her heart's content. The child's special background is like the ice in my heart that cannot be resolved, but I can't bear to see her innocent and innocent smile.

After returning from Germany, I was assigned a one bedroom, two living room apartment. A month later, Xin Xin returned to my new home at school with me. The return with the child in my heart clearly made me feel the puzzled and complex gaze of my colleagues. I feel embarrassed and try to avoid crowded situations. Even when walking on the road, I always lower my head to avoid encountering acquaintances.

Children grow up day by day, after all, they are their own children, and the natural maternal love displayed in their hearts and minds can only make me feel ashamed. I don't like to see this child. As time goes by, my dislike for her has become increasingly strong. Heartbeat named her Diandian, and she asked her to follow her surname. I can feel her kindness and dedication. In the blink of an eye, the child is already three years old. Normally, she calls me dad

Dad, but I didn't agree very well. She also seems to feel that I am someone who doesn't love her so much. She was afraid of me, and gradually I realized that she always seemed timid when she called me. Anything that could make her heart do would never come to me. I admit, as soon as Diandian called my dad, my stomach immediately twitched, resembling a spasm, causing abnormal discomfort. Fortunately, my work is always very busy, and there are countless excuses to stay in the laboratory. However, strangely enough, my work performance is not as good as before, and even worse.

One day in October of that year, my heart woke up late. She stopped me and wanted me to send Dian Dian to kindergarten. Dian Dian stood behind his heart, holding onto his clothes and looking up at me eagerly. Almost without thinking, I furrowed my brow. In that moment, I saw a little bit of confusion as I lowered my head, tears in my eyes. My heart also noticed Dian Dian's expression, and she lightly sighed and took the child

Holding her in her arms, she said to me, "I'll go, I'll see her off." As she spoke, she unlocked the door and walked down the stairs. I opened my mouth twice and couldn't say anything. The child lay on his heartfelt shoulder, holding his fingers in his mouth, silently looking at me. I mechanically raised my hand and waved towards her. Unexpectedly, this small gesture made her face suddenly glow with enthusiasm. She was extremely happy and waved her little hand at me, I shouted loudly, "Goodbye, Dad. Goodbye, my heart suddenly moved. That day when I went to work, the sound of Dian Dian saying goodbye to me kept ringing in my ears. As soon as I finished work in the afternoon, I arrived at the kindergarten early. I didn't know Dian Dian's classroom, but only after asking, did I find the third floor. I leaned over the window and looked inside, and saw Dian Dian squatting in a corner of the classroom, carefully placing blocks.

The teacher saw that I was unfamiliar and walked out to ask whose parents I was. At this moment, Diandian heard my voice and turned her head, looking at me as if she couldn't believe it. The teacher called her name, and she walked over happily and nervously, as if very embarrassed. When my heart returned that night, my expression was so surprised. She asked Dian Dian, "Did Dad pick you up?" Dian Dian looked at me,

Nod excitedly. How's Dad doing? "My heart asked. "Okay," he replied loudly. I didn't say a word, and in my heart, I knew that I should treat Diandian better. After all, she is just a child. The child is innocent, "I heard this shocking voice that transcends all narrow emotions

After a year, Xinxin was examined by the hospital and the doctor told her that she could conceive again. When she told me this news, I felt particularly happy.

In order to make Dian Dian mentally prepared, he asked if Dian Dian was willing to have another little sister or younger brother. Dian Dian happily said, "Yes! Yes

At this point, Diandian was already four years old. Although my attitude towards her has eased somewhat, her background has always been a big stone weighing heavily on my mind. Because of a strict, warm, and too little "father" like me, she has always been very obedient and sensible, but the child's nature is always uncontrollable. Whenever she does something bad, I find it difficult for me to tolerate it and often get angry and refuse to forgive her. After a storm, I often feel even more pain because I know that what I hurt is not only my children, but also my heart and soul.

At this moment, my mentor during my studies in Germany, Professor Yakri, came to our department to give lectures. Faced with Yakri, I felt a desire to confide in him. The reason I want to tell him is that he comes from a foreign country and will soon leave without causing any disputes among colleagues; Secondly, because he is full of love and has no airs, he gave me a lot of care and help when I was in Germany. Yakri quietly listened to me and finished all the process. After I calmed down a bit, he pulled the chair closer to me

Hold my hand and say, "Chen, I want to tell you a real story." He tells the story of Germany after World War II, where a Nazi war criminal was executed and his wife was hung outside her own window because she couldn't bear the humiliation of everyone. The next day, the neighbors walked out and looked up and saw the poor woman. The window was open, and her two year old child was reaching out and crawling towards her mother hanging on the window frame. As another tragedy approached, people held their breath. At this moment, a woman named Ina rushed upstairs recklessly and saved the child from danger. She adopted this child, and her husband was executed by the child's father on the street for helping Jews. No one in the neighborhood understood her, and no one even agreed to let the child stay in their neighborhood. They asked her to send the child to an orphanage or throw it away. Ina refused, so someone threw trash at her window all day and night, insulting her. Her own children also don't understand her. They often run away from home and throw stones at their mother with their companions. However, Aina always held the child tightly in her arms, and the most she said was, "How beautiful you are, you are a little angel

Gradually, as the child grew up, the actions of the neighbors were no longer extreme, but people still often called him the evil Nazi, and children of the same age did not play with him. He has become eccentric and often takes pleasure in destroying others' property. Until one day he broke a child's rib, and the neighbors secretly sent him to a correctional institution more than ten miles away. Half a month later, Aina, who was almost crazy, finally found her child back. When they appeared again in front of the angry neighbors, Aina tightly guarded the child and muttered to herself, "The child is innocent." It was at that time that the child learned about his own background, and he wept bitterly and regretted deeply. Aina told him that the best compensation is to sincerely help everyone. From then on, he worked hard and did everything well. Most importantly, he became incredibly concerned about people. When he graduated from high school, he received the best gift of his life: his neighbors sent representatives from each family to watch his graduation ceremony.

That child is me, "said Yakri, with tears in his eyes." The child is innocent. Chen, you cannot let this ruin the child, nor your own life. "Yakri's hands were unusually warm, and I couldn't believe what I heard! In order to repay my mother, after I got married, I adopted the daughter of a murderer. Ina was very happy to learn about it. She said that all lives should be respected. The child is innocent. "I couldn't say a word. Yakri only has this daughter and two sons. In my impression, they favor their daughter Weina more than their son, and Weina seems to be closer to them than her brothers.

Does Weina know her background? "I asked.

"Yes, her mother is still alive, because AIDS is dying. We often take her to see her."

I lowered my head and felt a fresh layer of oppression in my heart. I don't know, after experiencing immense pain and suffering, people

Our emotions can reach such a perfect and touching state.

That night, I said to my heart, 'We are old and your health is not good. There may be danger during childbirth.'.

Let's not have children anymore She looked at me with a puzzled expression on her face. I said, let me tell you a story

In winter, in order to provide Diandian with a better growth environment, our family came to a university in the south. The long lost family warmth has returned once again, and my work has also felt much smoother.

(Intern Editor: Lai Jiaxing)