Post Date December, 03 2023
I am a girl who has just worked for a year after graduating from university. During my time at school, I met a male teacher who I have always regarded as a teacher. His daughters are all older than me. His family rarely comes back from abroad, and he is the only one in China.
His leg is sick and inconvenient, so he always finds some trusted students to help with household chores. I helped him clean the floor or something, and then he left us to eat at his house. Gradually getting familiar with him. He occasionally jokingly touches my chest, and sometimes I can avoid being taken advantage of. But he is my teacher, I dare not say anything. He's not always like that. I believe him after a long time.
Six months after graduation, I didn't get in touch with him very much. I would occasionally send him a blessing message during holidays. Later, I wanted to visit my classmates in the same city, so I sent him a message to ask if they had time. If they had time, I would go with them to see him. He was very happy, so I went to his house with my classmates.
Since then, he has sent me messages from time to time. It was because something happened in my family and I trusted him, so I asked him about many things I didn't understand. Later on, he became a daily phone call to me. Gradually, I began to look forward to his phone call. He always said that I was his closest relative in China. I was quite innocent and believed what he said.
Later on, I also visited him several times with my classmates and stayed at his house when it was late in the evening. However, he always talked to me and hugged me during those few times, and I didn't say anything. I also felt used to him doing this. Not very annoying, but I never thought about what to do with him.
Later, one time he asked me to visit him alone, and he asked me to stay at his house, but I didn't leave. He asked me to sleep first at night, and he worked very late. I thought he would go to another bed, but it was almost midnight when he came to bed with me. He wanted to come and hug me, and I hid from him. Later on, he didn't touch me and slept on his own.
When I woke up in the morning, he came to me again, and I couldn't hide, so I turned my back to him. He held me, his hands were dishonest. I kept pushing away his hand. Later on, they stopped touching me and hugged me. After a while, I said I had to leave early to go to work, so he got up and cooked for me. Then I left his house. I don't know if I'm in love with him. I really like him holding me and staying quietly, but I don't like him touching me.
When I came back from him, I felt like I had made a mistake. If it continued like this, there would definitely be a problem, so I sent him a message saying that I only treated him as a family member and didn't want to continue like this. He replied to me with a message saying 'I'm sorry, that won't happen in the future.'. You won't call me much in the future. It's really uncomfortable not having his phone suddenly, I look forward to his phone every day.
I couldn't bear to contact him. I knew it wouldn't work out like that, but I still thought about him and didn't think much anymore. Instead, he called to greet me. Just no more ambiguous words from the past. Ask me about my job and talk about his work.
I'm conflicted, I don't know if I'm in love with him. I haven't been in love before, I don't know what it feels like to fall in love with someone. I wanted to stop contacting him, but I couldn't bear to part with him.
You need to contact him again. If you talk to him more about normal concerns, he will say something ambiguous. I know she's also having a bit of an affair with other female students. I don't know if such a person is worth believing or continuing to be a friend? May I ask you what I should do?
(Intern Editor: Cai Junyi)
