Post Date December, 03 2023
My husband and I met when we were in our third year of junior high, and after graduating from our third year of high school, we went to the same university together. We started dating and he took great care of me. He has been like this ever since graduation. I have become accustomed to his care and feel that he takes care of me like a thoughtful sheep, gentle and smooth, not arrogant, not picky, and not fond of saying that his vows of love are "saving face" to me, but I enjoy every bit of what he does.
I think he has become the most important person in my life, like a family member. But he also had moments of anxiety, because I made mistakes or worried him too much. In the third year after marriage, he continued to beat me three times, each time with burning pain, which also made me feel very cold. But I know he loves me.
Although I feel satisfied with my husband's thoughtful care, I still want to involuntarily approach men outside of work. The love given by my husband is too inclusive and soft, and I always look forward to something exciting happening. But for people like me who are teachers, there are usually very few exciting things, and it is usually students who make various mistakes and then punish them. But after changing my physical education teacher at school last year, I realized that there were still many exciting things going on.
The teacher's surname is Yuan and he graduated from the "Provincial Teacher" program. He and I are considered alumni, but not in the same year. He is two years older than me and not very handsome, but he makes people feel very pleasing and special. He is also very tall and looks like a "tough guy", giving me the feeling of being willing to approach him. And our office is very close, so sometimes we often chat, but later we get closer and closer.
Once my husband picked me up from work, and I happened to be walking with my physical education teacher. My husband didn't say anything either. After returning home for dinner, he watched the sports channel, and I followed suit. There was an athlete who looked very much like Teacher Yuan, and I couldn't help but shout out his name. My husband asked me, 'Is that the one I saw this afternoon?'? Actually, it wasn't much at first, but when my husband asked me, my face involuntarily turned red. My husband got angry and said something. Why are you blushing? Are you in love with him? I didn't speak, but I felt awkward.
The matter passed like this, and the next day in class, I forgot to help my mother-in-law bring what they needed. I had promised. My husband was really angry this time and couldn't help but slap me. I was also very angry and smashed the ashtray on the table. The situation was very noisy, and in the end, I had to go back to my mother's house. He knelt down and begged me not to go back. I agreed when my heart softened.
Then the second time I called was because the mall was offering a discount and I bought two discounted knitwear items, one for my husband and the other for Teacher Yuan. Because he has been single until now, reportedly dating for 7 years, but his girlfriend ran away with other men because he didn't have the money to buy a house. So, when I buy clothes, I help him order some. My husband doesn't finish seeing it, he says you always think of him for everything you do. I said we are colleagues. Is a piece of clothing too much? My husband was very annoyed with my stubborn mouth and slapped me over. My face is turning blue. I really went back to my mother's house this time and took three days off. Finally, he apologized at the door and I went back.
I know my husband is good to me, but I can't limit my social interaction! Besides, Teacher Yuan and I are colleagues, and we didn't have much to do. However, since my husband slapped me twice, if there's really something, it's not worth the slaps he slapped me with. But there are many opportunities to approach Teacher Yuan. Before I could find him, he came to me and said it was his birthday. He went home in the evening and asked for my permission to invite me to dinner at noon. I said sure, and I arrived at a Lu restaurant two blocks away. I was originally looking for someone close, but Teacher Yuan said he was afraid of being seen by the students. It's not good to have a man and a woman together. I thought to myself, too. He looks careless and thoughtful.
At that restaurant, he ordered my favorite dish, and I was surprised how he knew. He said he often saw me eat it in the school cafeteria, but of course, it had a different flavor from the restaurant. I am very grateful for his dedication. We also had a drink, and he asked me how my family life was, and I said it was great. But he said that when couples get along, they should try to avoid arguments as much as possible, as that way women can easily suffer losses. I thought to myself that my husband and I must have known about our argument. I'm sorry to hear that. He said, 'You look really good when you blush.'. I didn't say a word, so I felt like I should go back to school. This is the third time my husband hit me!
My husband said he forgot to bring his keys to work at noon and went to school to find you without your shadow. A student said you went out with a man, how do you feel? I said it's nothing, but my colleague thanked me. Upon hearing this, my husband was really angry. It's nothing serious. I've searched around your school and haven't found you. You don't have to deceive me anymore. After speaking, he hit me hard for the third time. I am extremely angry and feel that life is really unbearable. Always hitting me, when will these days end! This time, I didn't go back to my parents' house and went straight to school.
The next day, Teacher Yuan saw me and said that seeing you unhappy, I was also very angry with him. It wasn't because of him, and my husband wouldn't hit me anymore. I gave Teacher Yuan a scolding, but he paused and said, 'You can curse, as long as you're happy.'. At that time, there were only the two of us in my office, and I looked at him sincerely, and then he hugged me. We had lunch together again this afternoon and even went to the hotel. The feeling he gave me was completely different from what my husband gave me! This makes me very relieved!
But I know that my husband's almost abnormal behavior is actually caring about me. I hope I can take care of my family more. Apart from hitting me, he is good at everything. When I get tired, he cooks and tastes great. Every time during holidays, he buys valuable gifts for my parents. I know all of this. So after having a relationship with Teacher Yuan that night, I actually went even further with him. I think I should take good care of my husband, because every time we fall in love, he still stays by my side, and after the incident with Teacher Yuan, we parted ways. I plan to treat my husband well.
But recently, my husband has also changed. He is no longer nervous about me coming home early or late, but often chats online. Once, when I came back late and helped him pack his things, I found that he still had a condom in his bag. This made me very nervous. I wanted to find out the truth, so I followed him for a while. It turned out that he was indeed cheating, but every time he was a different woman, which made me feel both extremely aggrieved and relieved!
But it's really surprising that things have come to this point. And I feel ashamed about that infidelity. But now that I want to 'go home', my husband no longer cares about me as much as he did when he hit me. He hardly asks when I return late. The originally happy life seems to have changed in quality. Until now, I don't know if I should regret it or not. Did I listen to my husband's words and live a peaceful life? Now our lives will not be so close and apart. But now that things have happened, it's really difficult to retrieve them. I have to grasp the moment, slowly regain my husband's heart, and live a good life with him. I hope my husband can also, like me, "step back" on the road of extramarital affairs!
(Intern Editor: Lai Jiaxing)
