Post Date December, 03 2023
I am a boy born in the 1990s. I came to Shanghai before graduating from junior high school, it has been over three years. It's a big family doing business here. Let's all go together and do our own things. 2010 changed my fate, I don't know who to blame. It's still my fault. I would like to ask you to help me come up with ideas. I really don't know how to proceed.
My family's conditions are quite good in our hometown. In 2010, I went back for a blind date, and initially I didn't like early marriage. Perhaps it's because I'm too lonely, I agree to go back.
I have never had a romantic relationship before. So sometimes I feel very lonely. The other party was introduced by a relative, but in fact, she has a good temper. The only thing she can't do is that she has been in love before. And she is no longer a virgin. And what about me? I only learned about her a few days after the engagement between the two families. I'm almost collapsing! I meant to give up this marriage. But when I saw her tears streaming down her face. I don't know why my heart has softened. I feel like I'm hurting her.
But who has considered my feelings? Maybe it's because I haven't been in a relationship before. That's why it's so easy to be soft hearted. So easy to accept. In the end, I chose to tolerate her. But I didn't expect it to be so difficult to tolerate someone. And I have never been in love before. My first time was to give it to her. unfair! She still came to Shanghai with me. It has been almost a year now. We don't know how many times we've argued in the middle. Whenever someone mentions something related to this aspect. Or maybe I saw such news. My heart is in pain. I'm tired.
Why is fate so unfair to me. She still has my child now. I don't know if I have ever loved her. But when I think about if two days were apart. I really can't bear to part with it. But when I think of that thing every day. Who can feel my pain? I'm really tired. I beg you to tell me. What am I supposed to do.
Black marriage is now popular in our hometown. Those who are not old enough to register, stay together first. I'll go back and get married later. She and I are like this. I really don't know what to do. In a quarrel, I let the whole family know about her.
I don't know how many fights I've had this year, many times it's because of this. I have always wanted a divorce. I asked my sister, what am I supposed to do? Our family is very traditional. My sister said that there are several girls in society who are complete now. I know she said this to consider the big picture, not to let the family laugh at our family, and not to let my parents lose face, but I really can't bear it psychologically. Sometimes I think of death, but I can't let go of my beloved family. Please help me, tell me what I should do?
