Post Date December, 03 2023
He stayed outside for half a month and then went home. I hope he can turn around and we can readjust ourselves and start anew. But after he came home, his extra attention to his mobile phone made me vaguely feel something.
I peeked at his mobile phone. There are several ambiguous messages inside. I also checked the call log and found that there was a phone call and he sent nearly 500 text messages during this period. From the frequency of that call, I could see at a glance that they had been together for five days. I have a premonition that something must have happened.
Under my questioning, he told the truth. After he came out, he didn't know where to go, so he contacted a netizen with a very ordinary relationship. She was from the Finance Bureau of a county in Chongqing, surnamed Wu, and was an old woman who was married two times. The child is in her 20s this year, so her age should be around 45. After contacting him, he flew to Chongqing to meet her.
Xu's desperation made her feel that she could take advantage of it. After staying with their family for two or three days, she offered to accompany him to Jiuzhaigou Valley Scenic and Historic Interest Area, Chengdu. Another pair of wild mandarin ducks went with them. Her age and experience working in the government agency have given her a rich ability to interact with men, with both sides of the coin and both sides of the coin. She also has characteristics that can be reflected in all women who work in the government agency. So she quickly won his trust.
In the evening, they had a drink and their husband was in a bad mood. They were chatting in the hotel. Later, he was seduced by the woman and went to bed. A lonely and desperate man's resistance to a woman who exerts "care" and "warmth" on himself naturally collapses. After that, they lived together for five days.
I even know a lot of details. Her body is very low and thin, and her reaction is that he kissed her, said he loved her, and missed her... Although he later said it was just a play, he said she asked me if I wanted to miss her, can I say no? All this makes me sick.
After listening to my husband's detailed explanation, I felt that the sky was blown up and the ground was cracked. For the next three months, I didn't eat, except for drinking and smoking. Wine can make me feel numb for a moment, while smoke can make me feel calm when I want to cry.
I'm almost crazy. His mind was filled with the naked and lingering appearance of him and the old woman. That was a feisty woman with 45 years of age who tried to dress up as an 18 year old teenage girl, without temperament. "So old, so rustic, in the words of my friends, there is absolutely no comparability with me.". In the eyes of anyone, I am beautiful and have temperament, understanding and reasonable, graceful and generous. Everyone believes that I am a very excellent and capable woman in both family and career. But he did such a shameless thing with such a disgusting woman.
I don't understand how he can accept her and hug her in bed for five days. I haven't eaten or drunk for a long time, just waiting to die. I know I still love him. I have been loving him for over ten years. I can't figure out why my thirteen years of hard work and our thirteen years of hard work can't match the five days a woman gave him with hypocrisy! In order to marry someone who was inferior to me in all aspects, I broke up with my family and gave up my promising career.
I also know that he must have been desperate for his family and responsibilities. I can't give up on him now. One is because of the child, who loves our son as much as I do. Second, because I still miss him in my heart. I also know I shouldn't love such a cold and selfish man anymore.
I now live on the brink of collapse every day. Seeing him will remind you of the scene where he was with her. But it's really hard to accept breaking up with him from now on. In fact, he now regrets that he and she were just using each other and playing tricks on each other. A few days after I found out, she called him but he refused to listen and sent her a text message saying, "I don't want to disturb your life, nor do you want to disturb our lives.".
I added her with a male QQ, which was a frivolous and dissolute woman. I am painfully aware that the happiness of my life has been destroyed by such a disgusting thing, lost to such a woman who has no taste at all.
Of course, it's not really a failure, because my husband has become more responsible since that incident, and he hasn't fallen in love with her at all. By defeat, I mean my love. Decay like a flower.
I have always been a perfectionist person, and I think if we were old enough to have a clear conscience with each other, he would be loyal to me, and I would only be loyal to him, how happy we would be. But now, everything has changed.
"I can't face him at home every day. Everything about him makes me feel heartbroken. I know he will feel pressure when facing me, because he knows he has done something wrong, so he always feels like I have a handle in his hand.".
This fragile relationship makes us all sensitive. So I left home. Go home two days a week to see your son. "These two days, I've been pretending to be calm and happy, but actually I know I'm tired of acting.".
Every time I leave home for two days, I miss my son at night, cry a lot, or stay awake all night. The more I miss my son, the more I miss him, the more I hate him. It's just that my temporary indulgence and physical joy have deprived both my son and I of the joy and happiness of being together every day. "But I can't go home again. Before I can forget the pain and humiliation he brought me, I can only let myself heal from afar.".
I don't know what to do. "I have repeatedly wanted her to know what she has done wrong, and I have her own phone number from her unit.". Her son is an adult and has had that kind of relationship with such a small man. "I want her to taste the pain and feel the loss of her family and loved ones like me, but she is a second marriage, and she won't care about it.".
But I can't make up my mind. He said that in fact, this kind of thing is very common, and I can't take it personally. In fact, I understand that he despises her as much as I do. He wouldn't let me mention her, saying he didn't want to think of her at all, saying he just wanted to forget about the past. He said he didn't take her seriously at all. If I wanted to retaliate against her, it was my own business, and he didn't care.
I haven't had a happy day for four months. Four months have passed, and every day those dirty scenes have stung me. The more I miss him, the more heartache I feel. The more I miss him, the more disappointed I become. My heart began to despise and dislike him. Perhaps one day, I will give up on him when I can't bear it.
Men are sometimes really stupid. For the little stimulation and happiness in their lower body, they can harm the only woman who truly loved him in this life, and even lose their happiness in life.
Emotions are fragile, and after experiencing betrayal, it is simply impossible to restore the original.
(Intern Editor: Cai Junyi)
