Post Date December, 02 2023
He is one year older than me, handsome and slippery. I remember when I first started school, he went to our dormitory to promote daily necessities, such as nail clippers, MP3 players, and trinkets. Since I was young, I quite liked some gadgets, because the conditions at home were better, and I didn't care if I spent dozens of yuan more. Every time, I would choose one or two items, and other girls wouldn't buy his things, and they hated him very much. He was a kind of annoying person, and over time, everyone didn't like him, and they nicknamed her "Sipi". Although I find him sometimes annoying, I increasingly like him and admire his entrepreneurial spirit. "We are all peers, and we all use our parents' money, but he can find ways to earn money by himself.".
He also seems to be pushing his luck a bit. At first, he only went to our dormitory to engage in sales promotion on holiday days. Later, he often went there every three to five days. Whenever there was anything new, I was encouraged to buy it. Once, he got a cute electric bear. When he sold it to me, he asked for 100 yuan. Later, he looked up and said to pay the purchase price, but I also offered 70 yuan. However, when I visited the small department store market, I encountered the same bear, and the other price was only around 20 yuan. At that time, I realized that he had severely slaughtered me once. "But I wasn't angry with him either, but I mentioned it later when he sold my things again. He also quibbled that he must have been cheated, just earning me ten yuan.". With this kind of interaction, after a semester, I bought his gadget for as much as 5600 yuan. "We've already met each other, and when we meet on campus on weekdays, we also greet each other.".
After the beginning of the second semester, he stopped shopping and went to an advertising company to work. When he was not in class, he worked outside to make light boxes and billboards. There was a girl in the dormitory who was from the same town as him and was familiar with the situation of his family. She said that their family was very poor and lived with their father alone. Her mother and other men had gone away and had not come back for many years. What his father didn't agree to study was that he had secretly sold all the food in his family for himself. Nowadays, the monthly food expenses are all self-raised. After learning about his situation, we all sympathized with his situation. Later, we heard that he was very capable, earning at least four or five hundred yuan per month. During the winter and summer holidays, we also had to find ways to earn tuition fees.
Once, I was wandering alone in a square outside the school when I happened to meet him. He was busy following several salesmen of the company in mounting advertising boards. After seeing me, he took the initiative to greet me. That day, I sat in a corner and silently watched him work. His tall back, dark skin color, strong strength, and skilled technology all left a deep impact on me. I seemed to have a silent impulse towards him, and unconsciously, time had passed for more than an hour. He didn't know that I was watching his every move. After finishing work, he saw me again and walked over excitedly, saying that he had earned another 80 yuan today. I smiled and asked him about something, and handed him a tissue to wipe his sweat.
That day, he asked me out and invited me to eat a bowl of noodles. I was very happy. Later, he asked for my phone number, and we were officially dating. Another weekend, he asked me to meet in the garden. He talked about his family's affairs, and I accompanied him to cry. I also told him about my family's situation, and my father had his own aquaculture factory. After hearing this, he was quite envious of me. Suddenly, he treated me with special kindness and took my hand. I didn't retract, so he hugged me tightly. After a while, he pulled me to a corner of the wall and began kissing me. Later, his hand began to be dishonest and reached into my pants. This was the first time I had looked like this. I must have been nervous and my body was weak. I was at his mercy, and I had sex with him while standing like that. Whenever I think of the first time, I always feel that he is quite experienced, but he always says that it was also his first time.
After that, we fell in love and had sex with him at least two to three times a week. He was very energetic. In the past three years, I had been pregnant ten times, and every time I first found vomiting, he asked me to use a test paper to test it and take medication to drain it. Since we were together, I have spent more money, buying clothes, renting a house, and buying food for him. "I've been lying about using it myself, and I dare not tell my parents, but from the original four or five hundred a month, it suddenly rose to over a thousand. I always ask for money from my family, and my parents have also begun to doubt it.". After we fell in love for a year, I honestly told my family everything. I said I was in love with him and I loved him very much. His family was very poor, but he had ambition.
My parents didn't object, but they also reminded me to study hard. His performance towards me has always been very good, always changing ways to please me. After graduation, he went to work in a printing factory and lived with me in a rented house. Perhaps he began to earn money and began not to use too much of my money anymore. However, later on, some sisters began to persuade me to stay away from him, saying that he seemed quite serious, but his heart was too spent. My friend said that he had had intimate contact with many girls when I met him, but he was just embarrassed to remind me that I was so infatuated with him at school. Now that he has graduated, we will enter society in another year, and everyone has grown up. Many problems must be learned to face. "I never paid attention to my sisters saying that, and I was angry to say that I didn't need them to worry about my affairs.". In fact, it seems that nothing major has happened between me and him. Am I letting him go everywhere? Even his last semester's tuition fees were defrauded by my parents. In the two years since I fell in love with him at school, it has cost me at least nearly 10000 yuan. He always swears that he has no second thoughts towards me, but in fact, I am quite satisfied. I look too average, short and fat. I am quite satisfied that he can like me.
After graduation, I also found a temporary job in this city because I majored in computer science and it was quite convenient to find jobs. Although the salary was not high, it was only 7800 yuan, but in order to guard him, I had to do so. "Since I started working, he has come to my place very few times, saying that he is too busy with his work and has to work overtime at night. His phone often doesn't work. Later, I realized that he has changed to a new phone, and I don't even know the new number.". Last year, I was only 19 years old, and he was 21.
"He has been dating for another year, and he has really changed a lot, but he will never admit to having a new woman.". It wasn't until one day, a strange woman called me and asked me to hear something new that I realized how much he was playing with me. He has never considered me a girlfriend, at best a tool for venting sexual desire when bored, and used me to complete his studies. In his heart, he simply despised me.
My heart is dead, I have paid so much for him, including my body. "I asked him to pay me back, and he said he would, but not now, he really doesn't.". Now that I have left this sad city, I want to help my mother back home. This relationship will naturally end, because I am too idiot, destined to pay the price of youth
(Intern Editor: Cai Junyi)
