Post Date December, 03 2023
I am an extroverted woman, and I still am after marriage. I often laugh and laugh with my colleagues in the company, and often go out to eat, go to bars, and sing with them. "People say I still look like a little girl, and I don't look like a married person at all.".
One evening two months ago, I received a phone call from my colleague Chen Tao (alias), who asked me to go to a bar with other colleagues. Just as my husband was on a business trip, I was bored at home alone, so I eagerly went to the appointment. There weren't many people in the bar, and by the time I arrived, they had already drunk a lot. As soon as I entered the door, my colleagues clamored for me to have a late drink, and I had to gulp down three glasses of beer in one gulp. After three rounds of drinking, some colleagues left first and I wanted to leave, but Chen Tao said, "Anyway, there's no one at home. It's okay if you go back so early. Why don't you sit down for a while? Tomorrow is the weekend, and you don't have to go to work." Thinking about it, I haven't been out for a long time, and everyone is very happy. I can't spoil everyone's fun, so I stayed.
After drinking and drinking, there are only three people left, Chen Tao and Xiao Zhang (alias). Xiao Zhang went outside to answer the phone. I was holding the glass and slowly rotating when Chen Tao suddenly reached out and took my hand and said, "Are you very lonely?" I felt angry and funny, and broke away from his hand and said, "What are you kidding me? I'm not lonely!" He remained silent. After settling the account, Chen Tao asked me to take him home. I repeatedly refused, but he still insisted, so I had to get in the car.
On the way home, Chen Tao didn't say a word. When I arrived at the community where I live, Chen Tao also got off the car and took me to the door of my home. I turned around and said, "Thank you for taking me back. Alright, you go back, I'm here!" He suddenly raised his head and the tip of his nose slid across my face. I felt his breathing a little short and wanted to leave, but I was already tightly held by him. He pushed me to the corner and began to caress my shoulders, chest, and waist with both hands.
My brain is blank, I think I'm finished. At this time, the night is deep, and no one is moving in the community. If I shout for help, the neighbors come out to see our ambiguous appearance, and do not know what kind of words they will say; "My husband is also a grumpy and small-minded person. If he knew about this, he wouldn't know what would happen!"! At that moment, I couldn't think about what I should do, just subconsciously pushing him out desperately. "As I struggled, he had already reached into my clothes and wandered around, my tears couldn't help falling. I begged, 'Please, don't! Let go of me!'"
Chen Tao looked like he was crazy, ignoring me and kissing me with his mouth on my face. "While he was unprepared, I lifted my foot and kicked him down hard, then fumbled for the key in my bag with trembling hands.". At this moment, the unit door opened, and the old couple living on the second floor stood at the door, looking at me in a panic and looking at Chen Tao on the ground. Before I could explain, I rushed into the unit door, opened my own room door, entered the room, slammed the door shut, and then turned on all the lights in the room, gasping for breath.
That night, I could hardly sleep. "I dare not turn off the lights, for fear that Chen Tao might come out of any corner.". I felt nauseous and filled my heart with remorse: I could have shouted loudly, so he wouldn't have had a chance to touch me; I also hate myself for being so easy to trust others! I don't know if I should go to work on Monday. I don't know how my colleagues in the company would think of me if they knew about it. I want to sue him. Although the worst has not happened, what will others think if they know?
On Monday, when my mood calmed down a bit, I gathered the courage to go to work. Before I stepped into the office, I heard the laughter inside. I took a deep breath and adjusted my mood. When I walked into the office with a smile on my face, all my colleagues were silent. From their eyes, I saw suspicion, curiosity, and even contempt. When I saw the mocking smile on Chen Tao's face standing at my desk, I suddenly understood everything.
That morning, I don't know how I managed to survive. My tears have been swirling in my eyes, and I have typed a document several times, but there are still many mistakes. When I came home at night and lay in bed, my husband's caress couldn't calm me down. I always felt so dirty. I pushed my husband away and said I was tired and dared not look at his face again. Our husband and wife have always had a good relationship, but now, I feel like I have a shadow in my heart.
"I see a week's vacation coming to an end, but I don't want to go to work, I don't want to see anyone, and I dare not face anyone.". I don't know what to do with myself? Who can help me?!
(Intern editor: Lai Jiaxing)
